In the morning, I will rise
Dry the tears from my eyes.
My hope comes from up above
As You look on me with love.
God, You are all I need.
You're my Father, You're my Friend,
You're my Joy that will never end.
I will love You all my days
Praise You with all my ways.
God, You are all I need.
In the noontime pause of day
As I humbly stop to pray
I give You thanks for all I "own"
It's not mine, it's yours to loan.
God, You are all I need.
In the evening as I lie down to rest
I ask You, have I done my best?
My hope is still to please You more
As each day opens up it's door.
God, You are all I need.
Karen Logan
February 24, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
My life is Diabetes or Diabetes is my life
I am bummed. Seriously, seriously bummed. I went to the doctor today for my usual 4 month or so blood sugar average (called an A1c) checkup. I knew it might be higher because of all the holiday temptations I couldn't resist, but I didn't think it was as high as it is. He threatened me with insulin if I didn't get it down. I am not ready to make that step yet. So now I am trying to figure out how to change my eating habits, what I can get by with without cooking a lot, and although I have been diabetic for 8 years now, I still don't really know what spikes me and what doesn't.
Diabetes requires a lot of monitoring, stuff I don't have the patience for, like keeping a food log so you can know what food you should not eat, testing your blood sugar at least twice a day, if not more in case you are monitoring your food intake closely. Making sure I have glucose tablets handy, or candy or something with sugar so I can treat myself if my blood sugar goes low. The problem with candy is my giant sweet tooth which means I want the candy when I'm not low. I buy the small sizes of candy with sugar in it because sugar free candy tends to have a laxative effect, so I don't eat it very often. Then there's the sick episodes I have almost every day where for a little while my stomach doesn't feel good, but it passes pretty quickly. When I take all my morning medicine, it's 7 different pills and 3 are for the diabetes alone. Then I take the same 3 at night. I am always afraid to eat too much in case it might make my sugar go up too much, but then it might backfire on me and I might eat too little and need to eat more later. I try to eat something every two or three hours to keep my sugar level more even.
I don't like to cook. Not at all. I used to like baking, but in this apartment, the smoke alarm is so close to the kitchen it goes off every time I take something out of the oven. So I don't bake much. However, I need to start cooking more and eating healthier. I need a really simple diabetes meal plan, but there's so many different plans and ways to do things out there that I am totally lost. I guess I have been depending too much on my medication to keep me in control. I am trying to get in the habit of doing simple yoga and I'm thinking about walking around the apartment complex in the early mornings.
With diabetes, like it's name, you either beat it as best you can or you die. I'm terrified. Just plain scared that if I don't beat back hard enough, it's going to beat me. Please keep me in your prayers.
Diabetes requires a lot of monitoring, stuff I don't have the patience for, like keeping a food log so you can know what food you should not eat, testing your blood sugar at least twice a day, if not more in case you are monitoring your food intake closely. Making sure I have glucose tablets handy, or candy or something with sugar so I can treat myself if my blood sugar goes low. The problem with candy is my giant sweet tooth which means I want the candy when I'm not low. I buy the small sizes of candy with sugar in it because sugar free candy tends to have a laxative effect, so I don't eat it very often. Then there's the sick episodes I have almost every day where for a little while my stomach doesn't feel good, but it passes pretty quickly. When I take all my morning medicine, it's 7 different pills and 3 are for the diabetes alone. Then I take the same 3 at night. I am always afraid to eat too much in case it might make my sugar go up too much, but then it might backfire on me and I might eat too little and need to eat more later. I try to eat something every two or three hours to keep my sugar level more even.
I don't like to cook. Not at all. I used to like baking, but in this apartment, the smoke alarm is so close to the kitchen it goes off every time I take something out of the oven. So I don't bake much. However, I need to start cooking more and eating healthier. I need a really simple diabetes meal plan, but there's so many different plans and ways to do things out there that I am totally lost. I guess I have been depending too much on my medication to keep me in control. I am trying to get in the habit of doing simple yoga and I'm thinking about walking around the apartment complex in the early mornings.
With diabetes, like it's name, you either beat it as best you can or you die. I'm terrified. Just plain scared that if I don't beat back hard enough, it's going to beat me. Please keep me in your prayers.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New Year 2013
It's been a while since I have written anything in this blog so the first day of the new year is a good time to remedy that. I won't write much Just want to throw out some words to remember this year as we tackle the future day by day, minute by minute. Pick the ones you like and go for it with gusto!
N= NEW. Since each day is a new one, let's go forth each day and try to embrace one new idea, one new thought that captures your attention or one new attitude you didn't have the previous day. Try to look at old problems with new eyes and new thoughts towards resolving them.
E=ENERGY. I know some days are full of activities to do, things to remember, problems to solve, but save some of your energy to focus your mind toward God at some point in the day. Remember he is the Author of your days and He deserves attention every day.
W=WELCOME. Welcome each day as a new opportunity to do good, to serve, to give back. Welcome those troubling thoughts you have because it's obvious that you are meant to grow from them, and then do just that: grow!
Y=YEARNING. Cultivate yearning in your heart and your mind for more of God's peace and wisdom. Yearn to love more, do more, be more the kind of person God made you to be.He did not make you to be a bad person, full of evil and malice, but kind and good, with self-control and a loving and generous heart.
E=EAGER. Be eager to seek God's will for your life. Try to read more of His Word. The best thing I ever did last year was to read the Bible through out loud. I feel like I grew spiritually and it blessed me. This year I am going to read through the Daily Guideposts 2013. I look forward to that.
A=ASSIMILATE. Use the new things you learn, the welcoming you do of each day's opportunities, the yearnings of your heart and mind, the eagerness that you have to seek God to assimilate them into your daily existence so that you are not even aware that you are doing them. They will be as natural to you as breathing.
R=RUN. Run literally, run figuratively, run with all your heart, soul, mind and strength toward what God has called you to do in each day of your life. Do not be afraid, but seek His will, His way, and He will be with you through it all.
God bless you all as live each day in this new year!
N= NEW. Since each day is a new one, let's go forth each day and try to embrace one new idea, one new thought that captures your attention or one new attitude you didn't have the previous day. Try to look at old problems with new eyes and new thoughts towards resolving them.
E=ENERGY. I know some days are full of activities to do, things to remember, problems to solve, but save some of your energy to focus your mind toward God at some point in the day. Remember he is the Author of your days and He deserves attention every day.
W=WELCOME. Welcome each day as a new opportunity to do good, to serve, to give back. Welcome those troubling thoughts you have because it's obvious that you are meant to grow from them, and then do just that: grow!
Y=YEARNING. Cultivate yearning in your heart and your mind for more of God's peace and wisdom. Yearn to love more, do more, be more the kind of person God made you to be.He did not make you to be a bad person, full of evil and malice, but kind and good, with self-control and a loving and generous heart.
E=EAGER. Be eager to seek God's will for your life. Try to read more of His Word. The best thing I ever did last year was to read the Bible through out loud. I feel like I grew spiritually and it blessed me. This year I am going to read through the Daily Guideposts 2013. I look forward to that.
A=ASSIMILATE. Use the new things you learn, the welcoming you do of each day's opportunities, the yearnings of your heart and mind, the eagerness that you have to seek God to assimilate them into your daily existence so that you are not even aware that you are doing them. They will be as natural to you as breathing.
R=RUN. Run literally, run figuratively, run with all your heart, soul, mind and strength toward what God has called you to do in each day of your life. Do not be afraid, but seek His will, His way, and He will be with you through it all.
God bless you all as live each day in this new year!
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